All,
Latest update...from my last Thursday meeting in Sheffield
My PET scan showed two further areas that are inoperable...
Liver secondary, inoperable lymph node near main artery in my chest, morbid lymph node in my pelvis which means the benefits to carry out surgery is outweighed by the potential outcome of the surgery.
The terms inoperable, prolonging life and palliative care were duly noted...therefore I am to start a course of Irinotecan chemotherapy on Friday 05Nov at Weston Park - Sheffield, every three weeks, not sure for how long and maybe it was mentioned but my head stopped hearing things after the first few sentences.
I spoke with me mum whilst walking round B&Q after the prognosis, as a 46 year old boy, your mum still is your mum, if you know what I mean....We went for dinner at Mahmoods in Sheffield and to top off the day got a parking ticket as I didn't read the sign properly, dropped Nick off at the station and then we went round to share the news and had a group hug with Wend and Steve and then went home and drank lots of JD and coke, Just because I could!
Texts from my sisters...what must they be thinking?
Colm came round on Saturday (he lives in Petts Wood, Kent, jumped on a train to Matlock, stayed for just over an hour then went back, just to see us and give us a hug). Had a cuppa with Chris and Colin and some good solid prayer!
The Sunday Third-Space service in Hall Leys Park was strange to start with as I couldn't look at anyone in the eyes...strange because I usually like to hug everyone and just found myself looking at the ground - Colin and Michelle were leading the service and I heard them mention my name. They had one of those lanterns that you light and launch into the sky...we all held it and let it go into the clouds...moving and tearful but somehow I snapped out of staring at the floor (maybe it was because it was about me, me, me and me!)
Spoke with Richard my boss yesterday, Helen and JV - don't want to tell anyone else face 2 face!
Going to visit Minister Lyn on Thursday - If anyone has ever seen the Rocky films he always goes to see his minister the night before a fight for a blessing so why should I be any different.
Soup made in the freezer, ice cubes of juice to be made in the next couple of days and then I will be prepared...
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." - Deuteronomy 31:6
Much Love
Tony xx
