Well...
As I ate my dinner tonight I was listening to this cassette tape...Gary Zukav reading an abridged version of "The Seat of the Soul" (I got it and another one for a two dollar donation at the Senior Center on Contra-dancing night...long-ish story). And he said something like "there is no difference between acute schizophrenia and a world at war" and I started to wonder, "What if I have acute schizophrenia?" (Talk about self-absorbed! Forget about the world, let's think about me!) Worrying, of course. I guess it is the whole thing about not wanting to be "too creative," "too inspired." I want to be able to get along in the world. The thing is, I know there is a gap between reality and me. And I realize sometimes I perhaps let myself rant too much (mostly in writing, not out loud) about things that may not make sense to other people. And sometimes I notice a lot of synchronicities. But I don't think I am crazy. If I were crazy, would be I sitting here wondering about it, and writing about it in a public venue?...hmmm, I don't know. Probably not! Kind of funny that I am thinking about this right now. One of the songs I am learning for guitar class is "Crazy" by Gnarls Barkley. I like the lyrics. It's a clever song.
I am also in the process of preparing for my Music Theory midterm, coming up this Wednesday. I am a little bit in the "yikes" state of mind regarding this test. It is cumulative and it is timed. And the time segments we are given are, in my opinion, rather short. Honestly: I'm scared.
I should probably stop being scared and get back to work....
Don't get me wrong, I'm having a good time, too. Just a little anxious I guess.
