Verbalization, visualization, and intentional creation. Guided imagination. It might as well go this well!
As I write these words, my body is healing and repairing itself in a dramatic, yet natural way. My tumor is disappearing, all signs of the presence of imbalance and illness are leaving my body. Vibrant, living energy is replacing all feelings of unease and dissatisfaction. My mind is becoming clearer and clearer. Self-criticism and insecurity are fading away into the distance, out of the picture. Reason-guided intentionality is becoming my present and future reality.
My intention is to live "the good." To embody and experience this ideal template- "the good." In my life it will take this form: First of all, as I just said, I will experience and participate in a full recovery from all ills, both of the body and the mind. In the days between now and May 12, 2009, I will rehearse my songs with at least two other musicians, and the songs will come to life as never before! Between word of mouth, the flyers, and the newspaper article that will be published, many people will hear about and want to come to this great show!
On May 12, 2009, the CD release party/show will go absolutely wonderfully. It will exceed my expectations. Most, if not all the CD's brought will find new homes, and the attendees will enjoy themselves and the show, and overall have a fabulous time. Fellow musicians playing the show will also have a blast and unanimously agree that they would love to collaborate with me anytime! =)
In general, my creativity will flow freely, and I will feel comfortable and it will integrate naturally, in a healthy way, into my life. My creations will be in harmony with nature and will carry a spiritual yet grounding vibration. There will be no more anthems to sadness, at least not many, as the new music I make will embrace life and the moment. Though the moment may contain sadness, I will not feel compelled to perpetuate this emotion, but it will be equalized and balanced by exuberant joy and awareness of the eternal dimension of it all. These creations will flow freely through my form without the hindrance of ego-voice. I will not be afraid to create. Abundant creativity will come very naturally throughout my life.
I will continue to play shows, my skill getting better, my spirit growing stronger. I will not be distracted, I will not doubt myself, I will remain focused and centered in the moment while remaining in line with my goals. I will be open to being inspired by life and its multitude of forms. I will listen deeply and respond thoughtfully. My role in this life will unfold continually and harmoniously. I will not be afraid of other people. I will not be afraid of myself. I will not dwell on the past.
I will be and stay in remission and never go back. I will move to Tallahassee, FL and attend FSU's Masters in Music Therapy program. My roomates will be positive and healthy. My rent will be easily affordable, as I continue to sell CDs, possibly even a song or two (!!), playing out occasionally, and perhaps working part-time at FSU. I will meet many other musicians. I will be inspired and invigorated. I will act rationally and responsibly. I will progress with flying colors (funny saying) in my studies as a student music therapist, while continuing to compose original material. I will soak up knowledge like a sponge soaks up water, and I will retain it. I will learn much about how I can best help others in this lifetime. This education will really acqaint me with what will be my main career in this lifetime. I will be prepared to live an intelligent, successful, and helpful life, which I will!
When I do an internship, the people at whatever place it may be will like me so much that they will offer me a full-time position or a recommendation for anywhere else I apply. I may end up working there or I may end up being better-matched with another opportunity. The people I end up serving as a music therapist will be divinely destined. The people I serve will be people who will automatically teach me just by our both being there at that place in time, with the goal of a greater (and clearer!) quality of life. I will be able to respond to each situation in a compassionate, intelligent, balanced, creative way. I will be active, productive, intuitive, and successful. I will feel and know that I am precisely the the right place at the right time.
Eventually, I will live somewhere near the water, in a cozy, eco-friendly house. At some point, I will be married to person "of my dreams," probably a man. =) This person will be funny, smart, financially supportive, spiritually connected, and find his or her home in me. We will be in love and we will understand each other on a deep level, though the surface may feature a creative contrast. We will both be involved in "our work," but we will also be able to savor and enjoy our time together. We will go on fun, interesting, and relaxing vacations. Someday we might have a kid or two. If we do, we will be excellent parents. We will someday have a music studio in our home. Through our combined strength, we will be able to help others in many ways.
I will be able to see my parents and Tiffany. Everytime we get together it will be like a reunion of souls. We will rejoice in each other's life and celebrate our eternal connection. My family, both original and new, will remain healthy and happy until "the end."
So be it, so it is!
