Oh....someone is feeling artsy! And musical. I must've spent the last hour looking for and listening to music on http://www.myplaylist.com/. It is always fun stumbling upon inspiring interesting stuff I've never heard before. Pandora.com is great for that too.
Today really has been a pretty good day, despite it being a "chemo day." I have been in a good mood, overall. That makes a huge difference! I've been exercising a little more too- taking walks toward the end of the day, swimming around in the pool, occasional midnight yoga- all helpful practices for me.
Something a little odd. When the nurse took my temperature before seeing my bi-weekly visit with Dr. W, my oncologist, it was 100.5. Which is exactly where it was hovering over a week ago when I began taking that prescription medication Leviqoun. He commented that it was "odd" for me to start getting fevers this late in treatment. It could be due to the chemo. He deleted the Bleomycin from my ABVD regimen today. It is a good decision. The Bleo is particularly hard on the lungs, and we do have some family who have died of pulmonary fibrosis. Considered with my weird sudden gasps as of late, the best idea seemed to just leave behind Bleomycin.
I am in the midst of writing four essays to submit to a company who awards Collegiate Cancer Schlolarships to cancer survivors to go toward their upper level education. Today while I was sitting feeling queasy getting chemo, I edited the rough drafts versions of these. Ahhhh. A good feeling. I have such a love/hate relationship with composition. The hate usually just emerges from being afraid to actually get into the project. Once I am in it, I am sucked into making it better and better! Speaking of composition, I realized in conversation with someone yesterday that I have not written a song in almost a year. Unless you count silly ones, like the song about Pooka. Oh well....they seem to come in with the tides of life. When its time to catch one in my net I will. :)
One more thing.....you people are so awesome! Today I got a very nice e-mail from someone I have never met in person before but who has followed my music on and off for years. It was a very encouraging and thoughtful note. It makes me feel good to know you are out there. You kind and wonderful human beings make me want to keep getting better and better! Thank you!
I practically did Music Therapy with grandma tonight to help the aide and my grandpa out. And of course to calm, love, and cheer my grandma. Doing my best to be a soothing, distracting presence...
I've been noticing the ways that music effects me, physiologically, lately. It does a lot to my brain and my chakras. Certain sounds stimulate different parts of my brain/body. This is something I am going to studying more, in myself at least! Pre-research for my graduate studies. :)
